A.L

Please note that I'm not trying to be cocky nor I am cocky or something, I just want to share my happiness. Been waiting for this since the first time I knew it, since I love to sing. At first I was struggling with the song choice since I am no longer able to hit notes that I used to be able to hit. First I wanted to sing the song which I love to sing very much, "Greatest Love of All" but then I tried and I can't hit the notes -_- Yeh, I'm getting sucker. A few weeks later, I've decided that I'm gonna sing "My Heart Will Go On" I've practiced and practiced, I still couldn't get the high notes right. It may not be necessary for me to practice, but it was my first time singing in front of the folks of PSKD Mandiri and I wanted to give good impression. Anyway, after a few practices, I just realised that I need to take Paket B. I was panicking, not being able to join. It can't be delayed. I was relieved when I knew Paket B was only from T

There are times when people feel down and desperate. And I feel that right now. I have no desire to live. Haha, I know it sounds scary. It's like I don't have anything to fight for, anything exciting, anything that makes my life more colourful. I don't feel like doing anything. Like right now, I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating, when I usually eat before I'm even hungry. I seriously have no desire in doing anything. I find nothing can entertain me. And I got even more desperate when I realised my one week holiday is almost over. With me being like this, I don't know how I can survive at school. Everything is pretty much annoying right now. I don't even have anymore passion. I'm in a pathetic mode right now. I got pissed off easily. And right now I don't have any exciting thoughts, when I usually have lots. And I got more depressed not to only think about school, but also the national examinations I'll have to face in year 12. My passion

Sooo I have this thing for the past few days. I don't know whether to consider him as a celeb or not. Anyway, the celebrity crush thing is worse than real-life crush. Your crush won't even know that you exist. And you don't even know whether you can meet him or not. While when you have real-life crush as in you know the person, the person knows you, you still can talk to him, and make some efforts. So liking someone who doesn't even know that you exist actually hurts more :p