One of the comfiest liquid lipsticks I have ever tried. Period. I first stumbled upon this lipstic...

TheBalm Meet Matt(e) Hughes Review + Swatches

One of the comfiest liquid lipsticks I have ever tried. Period.

I first stumbled upon this lipstick months ago. The first Meet Matt(e) Hughes I purchased was the shade Charming. At first I wasn't really into it so I decided to give it away. It wasn't until last month-when I laid my eyes on the newer shades-that I realised how much I love this liquid lipstick. 

The Balm's products have the best packaging. How can you stay away from the eye-catching, Retro packaging. Plus, they all have cute names. The picture of Matt and his date is too cute. The tube itself is transparent with a doe foot applicator. The only con of this lipstick would be messy, look at the wand below. Although I never experience it, some people complain that the products would leak out of the tube.

It has a creamy texture which I really like. I prefer a mousse-y formula as it doesn't dry out your lips. Even though it doesn't feel as dry as say Colourpop, you still need to prep your lips before applying. If you put it on dry lips, it will show your lip lines and the dead skin. 

Probably the tastiest scent from a liquid lipstick. It has a mint chocolate smell which I'm fine with it. Not a big fan, but it's better than the chemical-smelling liquid lipstick. Compared to the Revlon ColorBurst Matte, the mint scent is more subtle. It doesn't leave a tingly sensation on your lips, unlike Revlon's (which I dislike).

Liquid lipsticks that are comfortable usually don't last as long as the uncomfortable ones. The Balm has a creamy texture, very comfortable to use, therefore, it doesn't last very long on the lips. Although, it really depends on whether you eat or not, what you eat, and your habit (licking your lips will make the lipstick fades faster).

Swatches + Thoughts on Each Shade


Starting with the lightest shade I own, this one surprised me. I thought it wouldn't look good on me, that it would make me look pale. Surprisingly, I like it. It still gives my lips colour without making me look like a sick person. It lasts pretty well on the lips. I could use it for hours and when it starts to fade I could barely see it if it's not up-close.


The first shade I bought when I decided to give this lipstick another go. I think it's the perfect nude for me. If you think that Charming is too dark and Committed is too light, get this one.


The shade that rekindled my love with The Balm Meet Matt(e). Purple and berries will always have a spot in my heart. Dedicated is such a fun and bold colour. The only turnoff with this one is that this particular shade is super messy. See the picture below.


My least favourite out of the bunch. Not a big fan of bright red lipsticks, only the dark vampy ones. However, if you're into reds then this might be the perfect shade. Not too light, not too dark. And yes, the picture is blurry. I was trying to fix my hair, the timer won't wait.


I completely adore this colour! Definitely one of my favourites. This and Committed, can't decide which one's my fave! A bit patchy when swatched on hand. However, on the lips it looks perfect. The lipstick looks darker in real life. I absolutely love how this looks on me. Can't stop staring at myself when wearing this.

You can purchase it from The Balm's stores or online shop for cheaper price. When purchasing on online shop beware of fake The Balm Meet Matt(e) Hughes. Thank you for reading!


I recently fell in love with The Balm's products especially their liquid lipstick, Meet Matte Hu...

The Balm Meet Matt(e) Hughes FAKE vs REAL

I recently fell in love with The Balm's products especially their liquid lipstick, Meet Matte Hughes. Quick review, it's one of the best liquid lipsticks out there. I love liquid lipsticks that have mousse-y texture and doesn't suck the moisture out of my lips. Although it doesn't last as long as some liquid lipsticks I own, it's very comfortable on the lips. The only problem I have is that a lot of online shops sell fake products and claim it as original products. Me being reckless, I fell in the trap and got myself a fake lipstick. This writing is meant to show the difference between the fake and the real Meet Matte Hughes, and to share some tips based on personal experience on how to avoid getting fake products.

During the holiday I purchased The Balm Committed in an online shop on Instagram (IG: cathydolla now seoulshopping - this online shop changed their name 3 times since I purchased the fake lipstick ). I've been eyeing on Committed and Adoring and decided to purchase one just in case the online shop is not trusted. I purchased the lipstick around IDR 15-20k (about 1.5 USD) cheaper than usual. The Balm released some new shades and the online shop was having "sale" for the older shades. Even before the lipstick arrived I had problem with shipping time. I bought makeup from two other online shops - shipped on Monday and arrived on Tuesday. With the same courier service, this package arrived on Friday. I don't think it's delivered on the same day as promised. And ooh I just checked and found two people commenting, having problems with the online shop.

The package finally came and I had a bad feeling. Here are some of the differences between the fake one and the real one. If you already own an original The Balm Meet Matt(e) Hughes then you'd be able to spot the counterfeit. However, if you haven't own any it might be hard to distinguish because the packaging is pretty much the same. Additional note to the pictures below, real product is always on the left side.

1. The box: I cut through the paper wrap, held the the lipstick box and instantly felt that something was wrong. The surface felt rough and the picture of Matt and his date looks blurry. Applause to other aspects, though. All the fonts used are identical. Looking from the front, there's not much different except Matt is looking a little fa...chubbier on the fake product if you zoom in. I think the real difference is at the back where there's a TV surrounding the barcode and TheBalm logo present in the authentic product.

2. The tube: Again, all the fonts used are identical and the picture of Matt and his date is blurry. The most visible difference would be the writings in the original one is written in bold white colour, whereas the fake one is a lot less visible.

3. The applicator: when I opened the fake product I can feel that it doesn't open smoothly (bahasa Indonesia nya pas diputer terasa seret). The real lipstick has shorter wand and bigger applicator while the fake lipstick has longer wand and smaller applicator. It may be hard to see if you haven't got the original to compare. It's very hard to find a con of this lipstick, but I've heard people saying that the product would leak out of the packaging. As you can see below the real lipstick wand is very messy, covered in lipstick. Meanwhile, the fake one is very clean (no, I did not wipe the lipstick off the wand).

4. The scent: The Balm Meet Matt(e) Hughes is famous for its chocolate mint scent. The bogus one has a super sweet smell that makes me feel nauseous. I think this would be the easiest way to determine whether the lipstick is real or not.

Top: Real - Sincere, Bottom: Fake - Committed
My advice to those who wants to purchase this lipstick is make sure you buy it from a trusted online shop. The price ranges from 185k-235k. If you happen to stumble upon The Balm Meet Matte Hughes that only costs 150k, it's fake. Even when the seller says it's on sale or it's real, don't believe it. It's better to spend more money on authentic product rather than purchase something that's 50k cheaper but fake. Don't even dare to use fake lipstick. There might be harmful chemicals and it can get inside your body through your mouth when you eat or drink.

I actually finished writing months ago. I don't know why but I kept on procrastinating. Note: ...

Evete Products Review

I actually finished writing months ago. I don't know why but I kept on procrastinating.
Note: photos are taken by my phone and hence the quality of the photos aren't that good. But eh, the reviews are all that matters.

I’ve gotten myself quite a lot of Evete’s products recently. Evete is an Indonesian brand specialised in natural handmade skincare products. I have made a review comparing their lip balm with another brand somewhere in this blog. And since I’ve tried all their products – body butter, body lotion, body scrub, lip balm and face scrub– why not review them all.

Lip Balms

I’m a fan of their lip balms. I have finished three tubes, and going to finish another one soon. The lip balm feels heavy and thick. It will also give you that shine on your lips. It is very moisturising. If you have chapped lips or want extra moisture at night, this would be the perfect product. Evete has 6 different smells for their lip balms and since I purchased their Valentine’s Day set last year, I’ve smelled all 6 of them.

Chocolate mint: it doesn’t smell like chocolate mint. To me it smells like chocolate peanut donut. I gave this one to my cousin. However, I managed to try it and it gives me that minty sensation which I’m not a fan of.
Vanilla: it smelled just like vanilla and they use real vanilla beans. I feel like this is too sweet for my liking so I gave this to my friend. She’s a fan of sweet scent and she loves it. However, that was last year's opinion. Now I found myself liking sweet-smelling products, which is why I got another vanilla lip balm for myself. And this time I love it.
Coconut: one of my favourites. It does smell artificial and sweet. I think the best way to describe it would be if you ever buy a soap that has a smell of coconut, this lip balm smells like that.
Lemon Ginger: my favourite. I dislike both lemon and ginger scents. Mixed them together and boom! I LOVE it, LOVE it, LOVE it. It smells exactly like lemon and ginger combined. It has that fresh smell and not too overpowering.
Green Tea: my least favourite out of the 6. I finished this first because I got to save the best for last. It smells weird. I imagined better smell, and was most excited about this one when it first arrived. The good thing is, it contains real green tea powder.
Strawberry: I don’t think I would like this one, but I did. If you ever smelled The Body Shop’s strawberry body butter, it smells a lot like that. It has that sweet scent without being overly sweet.

I feel like the lip balms have different consistencies than the others. For instance, the coconut lip balm feels super thick on my lips. One layer would make my lips feel sticky. Meanwhile, the lemon ginger and green tea ones are less thick and feels more comfy on the lips. If you don’t like something heavy on your lips then you wouldn’t like this product. However, if you don’t mind the glossiness and want something that’s very moisturising for your lips, go with this one.
It’s the most moisturising lip balms I’ve ever used. No doubt.

Body Butter

Evete’s is the thickest and the most oily body butter I’ve ever tried. It feels very heavy on the skin and will not be absorbed completely and will feel greasy. It’s probably due to the fact that it contains shea butter. I personally don’t mind because it feels like my body is very moisturised. I actually prefer moisturisers that will leave that sticky feeling instead of the ones that will get absorbed completely. That’s why I prefer body butter to lotion. If you can’t stand the greasy feeling, you won’t like it. Don’t leave the body butter in high temperature, as it will melt. When I first got mine, the body butter kind of melted and the oil leaked.

Aloe and cucumber: my favourite. Unfortunately, it’s limited edition and sold around Christmas last year. Honestly, it took me days to figure out which set to get. Evete released two gift sets for Christmas and mother’s day. The Christmas set sounds interesting with aloe and cucumber scent. Meanwhile, the mother’s day set has floral scent (and I LOVE floral scent). I finally decided to go for the aloe and cucumber one. Evete had a promo, which was buy any set and get lip balm for free. I purchased it immediately since I needed the lip balm anyway. The set contains body lotion, body butter, and body scrub, all with the exact smell.

When I first got it I was in love with the packaging design (not so much with the box). Evete always has that simple yet elegant feeling to it. My love reached a whole new level when I first smelled it. If I could only pick ONE body butter for the rest of my life, this would be my pick. I’m not exaggerating. I am totally in love with the scent. In fact, I haven’t finished the products that are in the Christmas gift set just because I love it so much (note: this was a few months ago). I can’t describe smell in words. The best way I can describe it is that it smells fresh and sweet and the scent is gentle. Whenever I use this, I can never stop smelling my arms. The first week I received the Christmas set; I kept on smelling the products.

Another body butter I got from Evete's giveaway is the lemon vanilla body butter. It smells exactly like Arnott's lemon crisp biscuit that my mum used to eat all the time back when my dad worked in the Philippines. I like the smell. However, I can't stand using it on a daily basis as it is too sweet. This body butter is attracting ants. It's probably because of the sweet scent. I would find a group of ants lying dead on the packaging.

Body Lotion

I love Evete’s body lotion. It’s not as thick as the body butter and takes less time to be absorbed by my skin. It is very moisturising. I don’t like using lotions from Nivea or Vaseline because they’re so liquidy and will be completely absorbed by my skin, which I dislike because I feel like I’m not moisturised enough and my skin would feel dry again soon. I love the texture of Evete’s body lotion. Sometimes I use the lotion at night and my skin doesn’t feel dry the morning I wake up. Meaning, even the lotion is very moisturising. Since I got the lotions from the sets I purchased, they smell exactly the same. Therefore, I will not describe the smell. Same goes with the body scrub.

Body Scrub

It’s the harshest body scrub I’ve ever tried because Evete used what feels like granulated sugar as the scrub. However, since it’s made with natural ingredients it wouldn’t harm the environment unlike scrubs with microbeads. The good thing is this scrub is definitely the most moisturising scrub I’ve ever used. After using this scrub it feels as if I just put body butter on. Therefore, I don’t recommend scrubbing in body parts that you feel weird putting body butter on (like your armpits). I like to put the body scrub on a spoon before using it. I feel like spoon is the best measuring instrument.

Face Scrub
(Papaya Enzyme Face Scrub with Charcoal & Green Tea Extract)

Photo credit: Evete

The face scrub is Evete's latest product. I got the chance to try it first before it's released. Honestly, I'm not a fan of this product. The smell is unpleasant. Probably due to the fact that it's a natural product. The scrub is too harsh on my face. I would just put the scrub on my face gently without rubbing it around. And it leaves a black residue on my face. Whenever I put on some toner the cotton would go black. On the plus side it doesn't cause break out, it's packed with natural ingredients, and it leaves my skin smooth afterwards. I love the squeeze tube packaging as well. And also the part where I could use it straight away without having to mix it with water. It makes things easier. 

From the reviews above, I am a happy customer. There may be one or two products that I'm not a fan of. However, I love Evete's products most of the time. Even though they're expensive, they’re of excellent quality and made from natural ingredients with no mineral oil or parabens. Thanks for reading this!


Photo by: Alex Wigan Stuck between two places Stuck between two hearts Will I find happine...


Photo by: Alex Wigan

Stuck between two places
Stuck between two hearts
Will I find happiness on the other side
Will it be better than the present

When words no longer have meaning
When memories no longer touch a place in my heart
Leaving reality for an illusion
Give me the time I've lost

And if I could only see you in my dreams
I'd never wake up so we can always be together
And if false belief fulfill the emptiness inside
Let me daydream, never take me back to reality

Don't want to leave the things that are killing me
Because I no longer know how to live
Don't take away the grief inside me
Without them I wouldn't be alive

Just listen to my muted scream
Let my life tell its delusion
Listen to my soul speaking and you'll know
You'll know what's inside

Before you read this any further, bear in mind that my writing is MY opinion, if you don't agree with me then it's totally fine. I&#...


Before you read this any further, bear in mind that my writing is MY opinion, if you don't agree with me then it's totally fine. I'm not trying to argue with anyone, so please if you disagree with my point of view, write it in your own blog. Do NOT leave a hate comment or start an argument.
Aren't you tired of opening Facebook and all you see is LGBT news/articles every time you scroll. I am. I guess the reason why is because all I see is negativity towards the LGBT community.
"How to prevent your kids from getting LGBT"
"Formula milk causes LGBT"
"Protect your kids from LGBT"

Most of the time LGBT is considered a horrible thing, sometimes even a disease. People who are attracted to the same-sex are discriminated. A homosexual person is considered as an awful person whose existence is a disturbance to others and should be "healed" or even banished. Indonesia is not a Muslim country. However, it is the biggest Muslim population in a country. In Islam homosexuality is against God's will and whoever against it will be sent to hell (uh-huh). When it comes to religion it's a never-ending argument. If you think homosexuality is a sin, you better think about your own sins. Your relationship with God should only be between you and God.

"Don't judge others just because they sin differently than you." 

I personally don't think homosexuality is a sin. I don't see the world in sins. I see the good and the bad. A straight man who rapes an innocent child is bad. A homosexual man who helps other people have a better life is good. It's about the act. You can't judge people based on their sexual orientation. But then again, you can never tell people what to do. You can't tell a homosexual person to be straight just like you can't tell a homophobic person to accept the gay community. Forcing your belief to others won't do any good. It's okay to have a penis and be proud of it, but it's not okay to wave it around and shove it to people. Same goes with belief.

My way of thinking is that if a person doesn't bother me in any way, then I'm not going to judge what he/she does or/and hate him/her. I have a friend whom everyone dislikes because most of the time he does whatever he wants and annoy the hell out of people. However, since he's never done anything bad to me (to my other friend, yes) I don't have the right to hate him. I don't see people based on their sexual orientation. I see them based on how they treat me. I don't mind having a gay friend, in fact I do have one and it doesn't bother me one bit. Bear in mind that homosexuality is NOT a disease, it's not contagious (how can it be if it's not even a disease). Stop saying that it's a sickness because it's not.

I guess this writing is about me not understanding why the LGBT community receive so much hate. It's against religion, it's against social norms, but so is discriminating people. I would love to continue rambling until this writing is two pages long. Unfortunately, it's already 12 am and I have exams to do. I hope you get what I'm trying to say. Let people be themselves. As long as they do not do harm (as in robbery, murder, rape, terrorism, corruption), let them be. Forcing your belief to someone against it will only cause a never-ending fight.

Thanks for reading my thoughts. Although I have a lot more to say, it is time for me to sleep.



First post in 2016! Yay! Before I start with the review I'm gonna do a background story, so...

Wangsa Jelita Green Tea Lotion, Rose Body Butter and Sandalwood Beauty Oil Review

First post in 2016! Yay!

Before I start with the review I'm gonna do a background story, so here goes. There was this night where I randomly scrolled through my blog post and found a comment from an actual person. I was surprised because I really thought no one reads my blog except me. I was so happy to know that there's actually someone who enjoyed my writing (at least that's what I thought).

It turned out that the co-founder of a local brand called Wangsa Jelita wanted to chat with me. I looked at the date and bam! it was 4 months ago. I emailed her anyway to say thank you and from there I got offered to try Wangsa Jelita's products. Of course I said yes. I've heard of the brand for quite some time now. Unfortunately, I never got the chance to try because most of my body care products (body butter, lotion, etc) are purchased by my mum.

Yes, the products I'm about to review are sent to me. Meaning, I didn't pay a dime for these products. However, the review will be 100% my own thoughts based on my experience using the products. I'm not going to lie or sugar coat anything. I feel the need to point that out because I'm about to write is basically me craving for Wangsa Jelita's products.

Green Tea Lotion


I barely use lotion as I prefer body butter. I picked this one just to have a taste of all Wangsa Jelita's moisturisers. My expectation was low on this green tea lotion. I've always been a fan of green tea and love how they smell. However, whenever I purchase any skin care that says green tea in it, I always get disappointed because the smell turned out nothing like I imagined.

What I love the most about this lotion is that it smells exactly like tea. The scent is light, you could only smell it if you really stick your nose. Once applied, the scent is barely there. Very recommended to those who are sensitive to smell. And to those who prefer sweet strong smell like vanilla, this one might not be enjoyable. It says "apply daily after showers" on the packaging which I never do. I just want my body to be dry right after shower and will get cold and impatient if I have to apply a moisturiser and wait for my body to dry by itself.

No worries, this lotion will be absorbed by your body perfectly even when your skin is dry before applying. This lotion takes less than a minute to be absorbed. It is moisturising and will not feel greasy. The lotion is very lightweight, it's as if I didn't put anything on. Since I'm used to body butter and body oil, I feel like I'm not moisturised enough even though I am. The best time to use it would be on day time because for some people going to uni or work feeling greasy can be bothering.

The packaging itself is pretty simple with a flip flop cap which I appreciate very much. Makes it travel-friendly, no need to worry about spilling it. The price isn't so bad especially since it's made out of natural ingredients. Most of the local brand I know sell their lotions double the price for the same or less amount of product.

Rose Body Butter


I am truly amazed by this. First of all, the scent is exactly what I was hoping for. A subtle smell that won't pierce through my nose. I can't stand that strong floral smell that some body lotion/butter have. My mum was beside me when I first smelled it and she loves it. Again, it's supposed to be applied right after shower but I just apply it when my skin is dry. The texture itself is a dream. Just look at how smooth it is.

What impressed me the most is how this product doesn't make me feel greasy at all. It feels super light weight, as if I don't have body butter on my body. The body butter I usually use would feel super greasy and heavy (not that I mind). But this one, I'm genuinely impressed. It feels more like a lotion to me with extra moisture.

Once I ordered body butter online and it leaked, making the packaging sticky. This product didn't leak during shipping which means it's pretty safe to be in your bag. If you don't like feeling greasy but still need that extra moisture, go for this. Again, I am truly fascinated on how light weight a body butter can feel. Would definitely purchase the green tea body butter after this runs out.

Sandalwood Beauty Oil

Seriously, how does Wangsa Jelita make their products feel so lightweight? I applied it and since it's a body oil it felt greasy at first. The greasy feeling will be gone in 5-10 minutes. It doesn't feel heavy on the skin at all. But then again, if you put the oil too much of course it will feel greasy. Even the body butter I usually use feels thicker on the skin than this! This body oil is the most moisturising out of all the products above.

Not only it is moisturising, you can also use it for other things such as massage oil or removing waterproof make-up. Haven't tried it myself though. I notice the oil is more watery than the other body oil I own. The packaging is a see-through with a spray cap. Very travel friendly, it won't leak with that kind of cap.

Sandalwood attracts me the second most after almond. If I did choose the almond beauty oil, I won't have the other two products to review. The smell is pretty strong, which I normally don't like. I like this one though. It probably because even though the scent is strong, it comes naturally from essential oil and not fragrance. It's hard for me to describe a smell, it has that woodsy and relaxing aroma.

Overall, I love Wangsa Jelita's products. Since their body lotion/butter/scrub only consist of 2 variants (green tea and rose), I would love for them to make another scent. Would definitely purchase the beauty oil - olio (contains all 5 of the beauty oils in mini size) once my sandalwood beauty oil runs out. If you use bar soap, check out their bar soaps. They have a wide variety of it. I really wish Wangsa Jelita would make a liquid soap in the future.

Find them here
Thanks for reading!


High school is the time when I really need to find myself. Just like everyone else, I had to make the decision of what I want to do for the ...

My Name is Alliyya and I Don't Know What To Do

High school is the time when I really need to find myself. Just like everyone else, I had to make the decision of what I want to do for the rest of my life. Finding a major can be bothersome. Since I was in grade 11, I knew I'm going to take biology. My fascination of the ocean (the deep sea specifically) and wild animals made me sure that's what I want. I didn't know what career I could possibly have with biology back then. Therefore, I decided to try for medical school instead because I thought it has better opportunities. However, since my passion never lies in medical world, I ended up taking biology.

I've made my plans clear. I'm going to study here in Jakarta for bachelor's degree, then continue to marine biology graduate school abroad. It has been my plan since grade 11 and I sticked to it until recently. I found myself in a situation where I'm not sure what I want to do with my life. I no longer knows where my passion lies in, nor am I excited with the thought of what used to be my dreams.

Oh, life. It's now 11 pm and I'm writing from my phone while lying in bed thinking what could possibly happen tomorrow or the day after. How about next month? Next year? The future is a mystery. Full of questions and uncertainty. I used to be scared. Not knowing what's in store for me. Although looking back, scared is an understatement. I was terrified. Anxious. More than half of my problems are caused by my fear of the unpredictable. I became depressed (also caused by other factors), I didn't want to face the future.

To think about it once in a while is fine. However, to be consumed by it is the total opposite of fine. I wasn't able to enjoy every present day of my life. I remember thinking I don't want to face tomorrow because I'm frightened by it. I wish I could just disappear so I wouldn't have to face it. That's the kind of perspective that makes you lose today and won't get you anywhere. You are living in the present, make the best of it. I found a great quote which perfectly describes how it should have been.

"One must simply take the days of their lives as they happen. If you spend time worrying over what is to come, which may or may not happen, then you will only be wasting precious days you will wish in the future you could have cherished a bit longer."

My point of view didn't change overnight. It happened gradually as I became tired of seeing life in a negative way. I had so much negativity, it felt as if I was attached to a horse carriage while wearing a metal suit. I realised that the future became out of reach, the present day felt like a punishment, and yesterday was a day wasted. I have not even reached my twenties. Too young to be living such life, one that's filled with habitual skepticism. 

Stop worrying. I worried too much that instead of solving my problems, I got preoccupied with the thought of worst case scenarios and doubts. I stopped worrying. I stopped worrying about the future because it hasn't happened yet. I stopped worrying about the past because there's nothing I can do to change it. I stopped worrying about what others think of me because it is out of my control. I stopped worrying about my body shape and grades. If I'm not happy with it, I should have put more efforts. 

Stop overthinking. I've seen pictures that says overthinking kills your happiness, and I can confirm it based on my personal experience. Stop analysing every situation. Stop dwelling in sadness. Stop creating problems that weren't even there to begin with. Stop burdening yourself with thoughts that are making everything worse than it already has. When things got out of control take a deep breath and go for a walk. When I got overwhelmed I would just listen to music and cry myself out, then I stopped and find a distraction.

I keep reminding myself that I'm not in control of life. Everything can change. I no longer worry about what I want to do with my life. There are endless possibilities, it's not just left or right. I am 19 and I still need to walk a long way to reach my destination. At times like this I may not know which station I am supposed to be, but now I know better not to be stuck in the same place and sulk. 

I'll experience something I haven't done before, learn a new language, and improve my social skills. I'll sing and dance, fall in love, and get my heart broken. I'll meet new people, some I'll cherish and some I'd want to put in a cargo ship to Congo. I'll fail exams and skip a class or two. Not knowing what's in the future is a scary place to be. But then again...

I don't need to have everything figured out. 

"No one knows what your life has got in store. You may go walking on the moon. You may be rich or poor. But I know for certain if you try to reach the stars anything is possible. Your dreams are what you are."



Apparently it's been a month (or more) since the last time I wrote something here. I've been meaning to write since forever. Neverth...

Perhaps, it's a new beginning?

Apparently it's been a month (or more) since the last time I wrote something here. I've been meaning to write since forever. Nevertheless, I've been busy with lab reports and quizzes (the standard excuses), I haven't got the chance to write. I'm going to take back my statement which involves me writing once every week at least. From now on I'm going to write whenever I want to, no dead line.

I want to take this blog into a new direction. I've been writing here since I was in grade 8, and mostly it's me babbling. However, from now on I want to make posts that are worthy to be read. I'm not doing this for anyone because I'm not even sure if there's another human being other than me reading this blog, I'm doing this for the sake of my personal development. I'll be posting better stories, better pictures, better reviews, and most importantly I'll be writing something that matters to me.

Since this is a start, I'm going to tell you a bit of information regarding myself.

My name is Alliyya but you can call me Al - my initials. Born and raised in Jakarta, Indonesia in 1996. The youngest of four. A biology student and currently in my third year. What inspired me to be a biologist is my fascination of the deep sea. A passionate writer and bathroom singer. My writings consist of my life story, poems or song writings, and fictional stories.

I lied about me being a bathroom singer. As a shy person I could never sing in front of my family, I'd rather sing in front of a thousand strangers. I do love to sing (when none of my family members are around) and have sung in public. Taught myself to play the piano. My techniques may be of poor quality, but hey I can play a song or two. Enjoy listening to any kind of music I find soothing. Some people may find me quiet, others find me entertaining. I'm a bilingual, interested to learn Spanish. Enjoy being both alone and surrounded by friends.

I hope with my writings in the future you can know me better and I can inspire or entertain you in some ways.



4 months ago (yes, it's been that long) I won two giveaways from The Soap Corner (TSC). If you d...

The Soap Corner Review

4 months ago (yes, it's been that long) I won two giveaways from The Soap Corner (TSC). If you don't know TSC - it's an Indonesian brand specialised in natural & homemade body products such as bar soap, liquid soap, body oil, lip scrub, and many more. The first giveaway: to guess the new product TSC was about to launch and I got it right. I won a body oil. The second giveaway: name the new product, TSC picked a word I suggested. I won another body oil plus a travel set soap.

I thought I can only pick one gift (either from the first or the second giveaway), but no TSC was really nice and let me have both. The reason why I postponed this review for months besides procrastination is because since the products are in travel size, I was waiting for me to travel. I'm trying not to splurge them by using them when I'm at home. If I did that, they would be finished in less than a month.

Dazzling Me Up - Body Oil

One of the thing that makes TSC special is that you can choose your own scent. And believe me, they have a LOT to choose from. Since I've never used any of their products before, I didn't know what scent to get. I told them to just get me the best seller ones (I chose floral because I'm not a big fan of sweet scent). I got the scent 'Jasmine' and 'Butterfly Kisses'. I don't know what butterfly kisses smell like, well, it's floral but I'm not sure of what.

Moisturising wise, it is very moisturising. I used it at night, and in the morning my skin doesn't feel dry. And you don't need a lot of product to cover your whole body. The only problem I have would be since it's body oil, it takes more time to absorb than body lotion/butter. Make sure it absorbed to your skin completely before going to bed. I once used the body oil and went to sleep straight away, not giving it time to absorb to my skin. The next morning I found stains from the oil on my bed sheet.

Head to Toe - Best Friend Soap

If you're the kind of person who needs to smell good after you shower, you wouldn't like this one. It kind of smells weird since it's made from natural ingredients without fragrance added. I personally don't like the scent. However, once it's rinsed it wouldn't leave a smell on your body.

Just like its name, this soap can be used from head to toe. Meaning it can be used to clean your hair, your face, any part of your body. That's what I love about this soap. The colour of the shower gel itself is unappealing.

Your Signature - Luxury Body Liquid Soap

I love this one the most. I think the reason why its named 'Your Signature' is because you can choose your own scent. You can use essential oil or fragrance oil (not sure if it's fragrance oil or fragrance something...). I got the scent butterfly kisses.

Castile - Liquid Soap

This soap contains more than 70% olive oil. If you have dry skin, I recommend this. I'm not sure whether you can choose your own scent or not. I used it when I was in a cold area and after I went diving. It makes my skin less dry. And if you compare it to other soaps you can actually feel how moisturising this soap is.

Castile smells weird as it is made mostly out of olive oil. It's like putting olive oil on your body. Personally, I don't mind it. Again if you are the kind of person who needs to smell good, you wouldn't like this product unscented. Maybe, you can get it scented.

Brush - Best Friend Soap

I've been searching a soap to clean my brush, and I almost bought it. Luckily I got this for free. I love the scent. You can smell a hint of citrus. Rather than pour the soap in a bowl of water and put the brushes in, I prefer to put a small amount of soap on my hand, and clean my brush in circular motion one by one. I find it more effective and cleaner. If you're interested to see the result, I posted a picture on my Instagram the before and after photo. It is quite pricey.

Additional note on Head to Toe, Your Signature, and Castile:
- Since the soap is natural, it won't create a lot of bubbles and it will be very easy to rinse
- Come by at TSC booth, because they have a wide variety of scents to choose from

Thanks for reading, hope this post is helpful in some ways

I know I always make lists about random things to say. This time I would make another list, because I love lists. The only aspect different ...

What About Me?

I know I always make lists about random things to say. This time I would make another list, because I love lists. The only aspect different is that I would answer some questions regarding myself, make up, skin care, and more. These questions I'm about to answer are not mine, I googled it. And this may not be related, but two days ago was my birthday yay! I am now 19. Last year of having the word 'teen'.


Were you named after anyone?
I don't think so

Do you like your name?
To be honest no, just because my name is quite religious

When is your birthday?
16th of August 1996

What are 3 of your favourite colours?
I don't think I have a favourite in anything, including colours. The colour I like better than others is pink. However, it's not my favourite.

What are your favourite tv shows?
Chuck, Modern Family, Hawaii Five-O, Devious Maids (I like miself some telenopela)

If you have the choice to pick your own name, what will it be?
I like some names like Emma, Elle, Ella, and Jade. But, I don't think those names suit me.

Do you wear makeup?
Yes whenever I'm up to. Although mostly no. I barely use makeup to campus just because I don't think I can wake up early so I can get my makeup done.

If you could write a book, what would the title be and what would it be about?
I don't know what to name my book. I think when the book's finished, I would still have a hard time giving it a title. I would love to write a book on my experience with depression and fictional story because I loveee writing stories. I think for my next blog post I would show you my writing as a kid.

What is your favourite food?
A medium-cooked steak

Do you have any siblings?
3 brothers and 2 sister in laws

Do you have any pets?
A cat and a parrot

What is your dream job?
A marine biologist or a story writer. Perhaps I could do both?

Do you want to get married later in life, if so how many children do you want?
Yes. I only want to have 1 child.

What is the least favourite thing about yourself?
I would like to say that I don't have have the least favourite thing about myself, because I love every part of me equally, but no. I hate my calves and thighs. They're huge and out of proportion.


What's your skin type?

How many times do you wash your face daily?
At least 2. More when I'm at home, whenever my face feels oily I would wash my face only with water.

What is your current facial wash?
The Soap Corner's charcoal & tea tree facial soap bar

What moisturiser do you use?
The Bath Box I'll Be Perfect facial oil

Do you have acne prone skin?

Toner, yay or nay?
I've never used toner before

Favourite lip balm?
Evete's lip balm in lemon ginger


Do you remember your first make up item?
A face powder

What cosmetic brands have you always wanted to try but still haven't?
Girlactik, Kat Von D, Stila

Favourite drugstore brand?
NYX, Milani

Do you wear fake eyelashes?
Only on a special occasion like weddings. However, I never put it on by myself.

Is there any kind of makeup you can't leave the house without?
No, I leave the house without makeup more than with makeup

How often do you shop for makeup?
Very often. Like once every two weeks?

What type of product do you buy the most?
Easy, lipsticks

Do you use makeup primer for the eyes and face?
Yes. Eyes - Milani Eyeshadow Primer. Face - Rimmel Stay Matte Primer

Pencil or liquid eyeliner?
Pencil for everyday use, liquid for more dramatic effect

What is your favourite lipstick?
I don't think I have any

Do you think you look good without any makeup on?
When I feel good I look good, when I don't then I don't look good with or without makeup

I'm going to skip the introduction and go straight to the comparison. Packaging Both come in...

Dose of Colors - Berry Me vs LA Girl Matte - Rebel

I'm going to skip the introduction and go straight to the comparison.


Both come in tubes with doe foot applicator.

LA Girl: The packaging is a lot bigger than the NYX SMLC. At first glance you might think LA Girl contains a lot more of lip products than the NYX one because of the packaging. However, don't let the size fool you. NYX SMLC contains more product. The applicator is straight. It can be hard applying because it's as straight as it can be.

Dose of Colors: I love the packaging. It's like a transparent glass so you could see the colour inside, and topped with a white cap. It's really simple and elegant. I simply love it. The applicator is perfect for applying, and I love how it's so soft.

Winner: Dose of Colors

What's inside

LA Girl: it smells like paint and it's awful. It's very liquidy and dries to a matte finish faster than Berry Me. The formula itself is light, and it's not patchy or flaky.

Dose of Colors: it smells like NYX SMLC, and if you don't know what NYX SMLC smells like, it smells vanilla-y. Yes I'm superb when it comes to describing something. The formula is creamier than Rebel, it's patchy nor flaky, however it dries longer than LA Girl.

I couldn't decide which one's the winner.

After they dry completely, I tested them by drinking and eating. When drinking, both transferred a little bit on the glass. After a while, I ate an oily dish and they both survived. Although the LA Girl one lasted more. 

When swatching on my hand, they look the same as if they're identical twins. However, when I put them on my lips side by side, the Dose of Colors in Berry Me is lighter in colour than the LA Girl Rebel. 


An important aspect to those short on money. The US price for the LA Girl is $5 and Dose of Colors $18. There's a $13 gap there.
Since I can only buy them both in online shops, the prices vary.

LA Girl: I bought mine for IDR 60k. The price range is from IDR 60k to IDR 115k (yes I saw some online shops sell LA Girl Matte for more than a hundred thousand rupiah.) My advice is don't buy them if they cost more than IDR 75k. Find another online shops. There are plenty.

Dose of Colours: I bought mine for IDR 235k. Although I've seen other online shops sell it for IDR 285k. If I intend to purchase other colours, I wouldn't buy any that costs more than IDR 235k. 

Winner of this round: LA Girl Matte

Comparison side by side

Closer look

If you have extra money to spend, I suggest you get the Dose of Colors because it's lighter both in colour and how it feels on your lips. It feels as if you don't wear anything, the smell won't make you feel dizzy (in case you're sensitive of smell), and the texture is just amor.

If you're on a budget or don't want to splurge, then I suggest you get the LA Girl one. It lasts longer, the colour is similar, and it's a lot cheaper. You can buy three LA Girl with the same money you use to buy the Dose of Colors.

These are only my suggestion and my thoughts. Feel welcome to leave a comment on how you think. 

Thanks for reading!

NYX SOFT MATTE LIP CREAM is one of the most (if not most) wanted liquid lipstick in Indonesia. ...

NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream Ibiza & Addis Ababa

NYX SOFT MATTE LIP CREAM is one of the most (if not most) wanted liquid lipstick in Indonesia. Every lipstick lover must've had at least one. It's highly requested in Indonesian online shops. I had these a few months ago. I was just starting to love lip products. However, it was before I decided to start writing again.

This line contains more than 20 colours from nude to vampy. If you're into nudes and subtle pinks, you're going to have a hard time picking because those colours are dominating. The names of the SMLC are based on cities around the world.

"Addis Ababa", a bright fuchsia and "Ibiza", a deep rose pink are the only ones I have currently. Those two attracts me the most. The best selling SMLC here in Indonesia would be "Antwerp", which I'm nowhere near interested. At first I thought I would like Addis Ababa more, but I was wrong. I love Ibiza. LOVE.

The packaging is the standard tube, the colour of the tube itself resembles the colour of the lip cream, then topped with a matte black cap with doe foot applicator. Before you apply something matte, make sure to exfoliate and moisturise your lips first.

Moving on to the lip cream itself... I love the the texture. It's creamy and it's not drying and still leaves you with a matte finish. It's not as liquid-y as other liquid lipsticks. The bad side of this is that these lip creams won't stand a meal. If you go somewhere with meals involved, make sure you bring your SMLC because these babies won't last and they don't leave stains. The good thing is that you can touch up. Unlike other liquid lipsticks that go flaky and patchy when reapplied, these SMLC won't do that to you.

Talking about these two that I have, the pigmentation is different. I was quite disappointed with Addis Ababa because it's not as bright and pigmented as I thought it would be. On the other hand, I'm in LOVE with Ibiza. It's super pigmented, and the colour is just amazing.

I tried to do a proper lip swatches (unlike the Sleek Matte Me lip swatches on my blog). But the lights are not in my favour. The sun was so bright, my phone can't capture the true colour on my lips because of the lightning. I had to lower the brightness on these photos. Once I moved to a darker place, it's too dark. I'm still getting the hang of it. Hopefully one day I can do amazing lipstick swatches on my lips.

These lip creams are very affordable. About IDR 120k if you buy it from NYX counter. IDR 88-120k on online shops. I bought mine for IDR 88k, and I wouldn't buy these for more than IDR 90k now. Make sure to browse through several online shops to get the best price. And don't forget to make sure it's a trusted online shop.

Would I repurchase this NYX SMLC? Absolutely yes. I would love to purchase the nudes for everyday use. I've got my eyes on Zurich and Cannes already. Hopefully I can do lip swatches on those.

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As someone who just started to get crazy about lipsticks, I tried to find as many affordable lip...

Sleek Matte Me Review + Lip Swatches

As someone who just started to get crazy about lipsticks, I tried to find as many affordable lipsticks I could find in any shapes and sizes, so yes, that includes liquid lipsticks. A few months ago, I stumbled upon these Sleek Matte Me - ultra smooth matte lip cream when I browsed through my Instagram.

Sleek Matte Me only consists of 6 colours (Petal, Birthday Suit, Fandango Purple, Brink Pink, Party Pink, and Rioja Red). You can easily get the full shades if you're into collecting lipsticks. Out of the 6 shades, only 2 of them are nude. The other 4 are bright and bold looking colour. And from the 2 nudes, one that is called 'Petal' is not suitable for most women in my country. This shade Petal will make me look like a soft version of Nicki Minaj.

The shade I first got is Fandango Purple, and it's a bright fuchsia purple. I fell in love as soon as I saw it on google. I need to have this flamingo. The next shades I got are Rioja Red and Birthday Suit. I've been eyeing Rioja Red for a while now, however I just got it recently along with Birthday Suit. I'm not into nudes, but then I got curious why A LOT of people are a fan of this particular shade.

The reason why I didn't get the other 3 - Petal wouldn't work on me, Party pink is really...a corally red although I would love to try it. I would love to get brink pink, I just haven't.

L-R: Rioja Red, Fandango Purple, Birthday Suit

Unlike most liquid lipsticks, Sleek Matte Me comes in rectangular shape instead of a tube, along with a doe foot applicator. The bottle is clear so you can see the actual colour. The rectangular shape prevents the lipstick to slide here and there. The shade's name is at the bottom. Peel the sides to see the ingredients.

When I read the review on other's blog, I heard they heard that Sleek Matte Me is a dupe for Lime Crime Velvetines. I do not know about this. I do have lime crime, however I haven't thought about making comparison. Just like any other liquid lipsticks, the formula is drying. Make sure you exfoliate your lips and use lip balm. It's not that drying, and not as thick as other liquid lipsticks that I've tried. However, it's there. You can feel that it's there making your lips dry.

There was this one time when I use a thick lip balm, and the lipstick became creamy. Sleek Creamy Me. Even though it's matte, the lipstick transferred through the glass (or straw) when I drink. And doesn't stay on my lips when I eat. The bad thing about liquid lipsticks is that they don't survive foods and drinks (mostly, anyway). However, you can't put more on your lips because they will crack or worse..flaking. 

Below, you could see my awkward lip swatches.

Birthday Suit

Rioja Red

Fandango Purple

My thoughts on these:

Birthday Suit - I don't get the hypes over this one. I don't think the colour is for me. It's lighter than my skin colour. And when I look at it, it's as if I'm not wearing any lipstick. I saw pictures of Birthday Suit on other people and it suit them really well. So maybe this colour is for you. 

Rioja Red - gorgeous red. Make sure to use lip liner, they will bleed.

Fandango Purple - my favourite of them all. It's a really fun colour and I love it.

I would love to try other shades as well. 

So, are these Sleek Matte Me liquid lipsticks worth the money? If you're a fan of liquid lipsticks then go for it. I would totally repurchase it. Rioja Red and Fandago Purple are stunning. They drying, but not too drying which is a good thing.
In Indonesia you could only find it online, and it costs IDR 120-150k. Browse through a lot of online shops to get the cheapest price. Make sure it's trusted.

Thank you for reading my blog, appreciate it so much. See you on the next posts.