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A lot of things have been going on. I just did the national exams and got the results already last week. Considering what I've been through lately, I think I did a pretty good job. I got a not-bad-at-all scores. And I can't believe my physics score is higher than biology. I never understand physics since grade 7... I've been taught by 5 different physics teachers at school and I finally started to understand it about 2 months before national exams, thanks to my uncle who taught me. And I just finished my internship lately. I went to SeaW****d Indonesia (sorry, I have to censor that so this writing won't come up on google :P) There were 2 options at first, that and a zoo. But then after handing the cv for quite some time there weren't answers from both sides. And the last option for me was to go to an animal shelter. I wasn't really happy with the idea of me going to an animal shelter because I am allergic to cats (and yes, I do have a cat) and I never really ...

Have you ever feel like you've known someone for a really long time, like your whole life. And you think you know everything about them when really, you know nothing. You don't know who they are anymore. Don't know what changed them along the way. Maybe there's no reason, nothing, all of a sudden they're like that. Even they don't know themselves. They live a happy, perfect life to know what has happened. Maybe nothing has happened. It's just their minds playing tricks. Or maybe they just want to be troubled because their lives always go smoothly. They think too much. In the end it's only troubles they got.

Hi to whoever reading this. I don't think there's anyone else reading this blog beside myself. I'm in grade 12 now. Grade 11 was so boring, I hope I'll have fun this school year. Have fun studying since I'm in grade 12 and there's no avoid exams like I used to. My english is getting worse as I need to translate something from Indonesian to English. Yay. There's nothing interesting in my life, really. I have this bimbel every sunday from 8-3, so it's basically another school day. I have vocal lesson on saturday, too. My class won the best class display and best performance on independence day celebration. I just finished my autobiography project and oh how I miss my times in secondary 3 and 4. The school was super crappy, and probably still is, I miss my friends there and physics class. Physics class with Boradori is the best. Can't believe I'm almost in uni. Time flies that fast? I don't want to grow old. More responsibilities and all. Bu...

Hola a todos! I've opened this blog quite a few times, but never write anything. Or I did, but saved it as draft. Best friends. It's something that crosses my mind quite a lot. I've been thinking about some people and how our relationships are not the same anymore. Really hard to find someone that will always be there for you, stay strong, forget about the distance. I realise I have lost some close and best friends. Reason is simple, we're not in the same school anymore. They have new friends, I have new friend. We stayed close at first, got separated at the end. Yes, when we meet we still talk like we're inseparable. But, during our everyday's lives, we're like a complete stranger. Never talk to each other again. Many times I want to say hi, but it feels like they don't feel the same. Never reply my message, or never come back on every brb's. I have friends, I do, but it feels lonely when you have no one to talk to at home. I never talk with my frie...

Please note that I'm not trying to be cocky nor I am cocky or something, I just want to share my happiness. Been waiting for this since the first time I knew it, since I love to sing. At first I was struggling with the song choice since I am no longer able to hit notes that I used to be able to hit. First I wanted to sing the song which I love to sing very much, "Greatest Love of All" but then I tried and I can't hit the notes -_- Yeh, I'm getting sucker. A few weeks later, I've decided that I'm gonna sing "My Heart Will Go On" I've practiced and practiced, I still couldn't get the high notes right. It may not be necessary for me to practice, but it was my first time singing in front of the folks of PSKD Mandiri and I wanted to give good impression. Anyway, after a few practices, I just realised that I need to take Paket B. I was panicking, not being able to join. It can't be delayed. I was relieved when I knew Paket B was only from T...

There are times when people feel down and desperate. And I feel that right now. I have no desire to live. Haha, I know it sounds scary. It's like I don't have anything to fight for, anything exciting, anything that makes my life more colourful. I don't feel like doing anything. Like right now, I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating, when I usually eat before I'm even hungry. I seriously have no desire in doing anything. I find nothing can entertain me. And I got even more desperate when I realised my one week holiday is almost over. With me being like this, I don't know how I can survive at school. Everything is pretty much annoying right now. I don't even have anymore passion. I'm in a pathetic mode right now. I got pissed off easily. And right now I don't have any exciting thoughts, when I usually have lots. And I got more depressed not to only think about school, but also the national examinations I'll have to face in year 12. My passion ...

Sooo I have this thing for the past few days. I don't know whether to consider him as a celeb or not. Anyway, the celebrity crush thing is worse than real-life crush. Your crush won't even know that you exist. And you don't even know whether you can meet him or not. While when you have real-life crush as in you know the person, the person knows you, you still can talk to him, and make some efforts. So liking someone who doesn't even know that you exist actually hurts more :p