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Hola a todos! I've opened this blog quite a few times, but never write anything. Or I did, but saved it as draft. Best friends. It's something that crosses my mind quite a lot. I've been thinking about some people and how our relationships are not the same anymore. Really hard to find someone that will always be there for you, stay strong, forget about the distance. I realise I have lost some close and best friends. Reason is simple, we're not in the same school anymore. They have new friends, I have new friend. We stayed close at first, got separated at the end. Yes, when we meet we still talk like we're inseparable. But, during our everyday's lives, we're like a complete stranger. Never talk to each other again. Many times I want to say hi, but it feels like they don't feel the same. Never reply my message, or never come back on every brb's. I have friends, I do, but it feels lonely when you have no one to talk to at home. I never talk with my frie...

Please note that I'm not trying to be cocky nor I am cocky or something, I just want to share my happiness. Been waiting for this since the first time I knew it, since I love to sing. At first I was struggling with the song choice since I am no longer able to hit notes that I used to be able to hit. First I wanted to sing the song which I love to sing very much, "Greatest Love of All" but then I tried and I can't hit the notes -_- Yeh, I'm getting sucker. A few weeks later, I've decided that I'm gonna sing "My Heart Will Go On" I've practiced and practiced, I still couldn't get the high notes right. It may not be necessary for me to practice, but it was my first time singing in front of the folks of PSKD Mandiri and I wanted to give good impression. Anyway, after a few practices, I just realised that I need to take Paket B. I was panicking, not being able to join. It can't be delayed. I was relieved when I knew Paket B was only from T...

There are times when people feel down and desperate. And I feel that right now. I have no desire to live. Haha, I know it sounds scary. It's like I don't have anything to fight for, anything exciting, anything that makes my life more colourful. I don't feel like doing anything. Like right now, I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating, when I usually eat before I'm even hungry. I seriously have no desire in doing anything. I find nothing can entertain me. And I got even more desperate when I realised my one week holiday is almost over. With me being like this, I don't know how I can survive at school. Everything is pretty much annoying right now. I don't even have anymore passion. I'm in a pathetic mode right now. I got pissed off easily. And right now I don't have any exciting thoughts, when I usually have lots. And I got more depressed not to only think about school, but also the national examinations I'll have to face in year 12. My passion ...

Sooo I have this thing for the past few days. I don't know whether to consider him as a celeb or not. Anyway, the celebrity crush thing is worse than real-life crush. Your crush won't even know that you exist. And you don't even know whether you can meet him or not. While when you have real-life crush as in you know the person, the person knows you, you still can talk to him, and make some efforts. So liking someone who doesn't even know that you exist actually hurts more :p

Some people may not know this, some people may know this. I love to sing! I started to sing when I was in playgroup of course, playgroup kids sing much I guess. I forgot how old I was. I got my first walkman. It was pink. I was a huge fan of westlife. I would sit on the roof and sang. When I was around 8, I don't know why, till now, and how it started, my mom put me in BISS to study vocal. I was with my cousin and her friend. I started singing in public since I was.... I have no idea. I thought my first public appearance was when I had tryout in BISS. Then lately I remembered that it was before that. I remember I sang on my 8th birthday. And I probably have sung in front of public before that. I quitted BISS because my cousin quitted too. My time in BISS didn't last so long. After that, I lost contact with singing. I barely listened to music. Until...grade 7. The first time I had internet connection. I browsed stuff on youtube and found Declan Galbraith. He was the one that mad...

Hola! Long time no write. I finally have a laptop now. And I'm graduated from Secondary. I won't be in Junior College 1, though. I'll be in grade 11 :p I'm moving back to PSKD Mandiri. First, I need UAN. Second, I moved because of my brother, my brother is in uni already, so no need to stay there. Third, I don't wanna be in Hope International School anymore. I've always wanted to move so much. Gonna miss the folks in Secondary 4, though. HIS...school sucks but awesome friends. I've been watching Ghost Whisperer starting season 1. Just finished season 1. GOD I hate the ending. I have a new crush, Luis Fonsi. He's Spanish, he's not handsome, or hot, or something. Well, he does look handsome in some of his pics. I'm in love with his voice. I'll be in school on wednesday. I don't know why it's not monday, oh well..it gives me 2 days extra. Oh how I'd love to sing with Luis Fonsi someday. I finally got to see and hear Cristian's ne...

Graduation on Friday. I'll be singing "I'll Be There" Mariah Carey version with my friend. I'll be graduated from Secondary. After graduation is holiday! I wonder when is my new school starts. Here, school starts again on July, 18th. I think my new school will start before that. Probably July 13th. Anyway, I'll get a month holiday. Usually it's just 3 weeks plus a few days. I'm gonna miss my class so much. I'm not as sad as I was in Grade 8. Cos I'll be back to my old school. And I need to get used to goodbyes cos I'll be having lots of them. When I was in Grade 7 I need to get used to my class. And in Grade 8, it was great. Grade 9, I moved, I need to get used to my class and my new school. I felt so miserable. I needed months to get used to my class and my new school. I'm not so good with the new environment. Grade 10, I'm already used to it, not the school though. I had such an amazing times with my friends. And I'm leaving ...